Lately I have been extremely anxious and unable to sleep because I have all this pent-up energy trying to burst through my skin. It used to be that when I was excited to go to my studio, I would arrive to find the temperature unbearably cold, or my tummy would rumble and claim it wanted a snack that was 15 minutes back in town. I ran out there yesterday to pick up some scarves, hats and mittens I stowed away for a moving date that never arrived, and found that I couldn't bring myself to leave without getting my hands on some form of material other than fabric. I just wanted to get messy!! So I turned to this portrait and decided I wouldn't leave without finishing it. If you compare it with the other Cosmetic Appeal Portraits, it's clearly very different. This piece is much more loose, with a sketch quality, whereas the others are tight and clean. I am always so picky and detail-oriented, but being away from my materials and a space that allows me to be messy created this great need for spontaneity and a quick rush of self-expression. I'm still not sure if I like the piece...it has a feeling of being finished, yet not being finished (if that makes sense to anyone else). Yet I DO like that quality, and I love that I was able to let myself go without beating myself up over "mistakes." When I did something I didn't like, I just laughed and said "oh well, I'll work with it!" Perhaps I'll get to another one next time I'm in town. For now, it's back to working with fabrics.

Sometimes it's enjoyable to share thoughts and interests, or helpful to write and work through the jumbled mess of the mind. Also, I like to be open to the thoughts, questions and critiques of others. That's the purpose of my blog page! Periodically, I'll be writing posts about projects I am currently working on, and including images so that you, with all your curiosity, can get a glimpse into my mind, see what I am working on, and feel free to toss some words my way.

I love to write and ramble on, so forgive me if I do so